This is weird...

So many changes, so many things to do, weirdness all around
This is bizarro world
Running, working, striving, continuing, enduring
Serving
Loving
Just had to talk that through, I'm okay now.

Alright, alright, alright...I hope you said that in your head exactly how I meant it to sound, ha.  I didn't really mean to make the above into a poem-like retort but found it just spilling out.  It's really been a crazy summer, the boys are currently at FCA Leadership Camp and won't be home until Saturday which means James and I are home alone but I'm hardly at home at all so whoopie doo.  I just want to complain a little which I have noticed myself doing and really don't want to, so forgive me.  Last month I didn't blog at all, too busy I guess, and the bad part is a recent blog (end of May?) entitled "A Delicate Balance" meant trying to balance things a little better.  Since then I have been busier than ever before, go figure...I'm really trying, no...that's a lie, I haven't been trying at all.  When someone asks me to do something I just give them a blank stare or look at them with a dumb look on my face.  I just find myself doing more and more and I want to do it all but I am really wearing out, I am very tired but this too shall pass.  Our family is going to take a minivacation to Branson in August right before school starts (because we have no time to go any other time) and I'm really looking forward to it.  I will just keep praying for God to use me and enable to say no to the right things and not have feelings of regret or guilt.  Til next time :)